I am the most impatient person in the world and I haven't got a clue how to fix it and it's driving me bonkers! What makes me even crazier is that I'm now paying attention to it and noticing every time I fail, but not quite in time to change. Today at work, I caught myself right after losing it with a kid (I didn't yell, but I upset him a little), and I immediately thought of what I should say to him. But I was in the middle of leading an activity and had to wait till it was done. But by then I'd totally forgotten and didn't remember till I was on my way home. I may have ruined that kid's whole day.
Then, tonight, I got impatient with my baby for not taking a nap when she was tired and cranky. But not because I wanted her to get her rest. No, I just wanted to get some things done.
I got impatient with myself for thinking I can do things that I can't. Like making up quilt patterns or showing up for knitting classes. And these are my hobbies; they should make me happy!
And so, for the remaining 10 days of the Patience Month, I am going to attempt to return to my previous un-self-aware state where I was often impatient and frustrated, but I didn't always know it.
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