Confidence: Day 7

I really haven’t given up on this blog. I just sort of forget about it sometimes.

Really quickly, here’s what I have to say about Confidence:

I have never been a confident person. I have always felt inadequate in every endeavor I have attempted. That includes jobs, hobbies, friendships, relationships, and pretty much all other realms of life.

I’m sure there is some psychological reason behind this, and a little therapy would do me good. But I would also like to report that I think I’m on an up-swing here.

First, parenting is WONDERFUL! Of course, it is also another realm for me to lack confidence in, and I very often do. But, in general, I believe I’m a pretty good mom. I know there are things I could pay more attention to, and things I could let go of sooner. And I also know that my child’s success in life is not entirely related to my parenting abilities. But just looking at my daughter makes me feel good about our family.

Second, I’m losing weight. I know that Looks cannot be all there is to Confidence, but it helps. I don’t think I’ve ever been the thinnest girl in the room, even when I was little. I wasn’t “overweight” until maybe high school, and even then it was never a health concern. About 5 years ago, I started losing weight and was really excited about it. Then I changed jobs and gained 2 sizes in 3 months. I have finally reached the verge of fitting into my jeans from 5 years ago. And I’m hoping to keep going. It makes me feel good, and is improving my confidence.

So there are my first thoughts on Confidence.