Where have I been?

Okay, here's the deal. I'm a mom. I'm also a working mom. And my laptop broke last summer and has slowly been on the mend. All of those things together have made this blog fall by the wayside.

Also, I decided that "Disciplined" was a very stupid element to add to this exercise, so I quite in the middle of that one. That doesn't mean I quit the whole thing, it was just very hard to get back to it.

And the reason it was so hard is that I don't have any idea where to go with the Passion thing. It seems like I should find something to be passionate about, right? If you judge that by the time and energy I spend on things, other than my job, I must be passionate about keeping my house clean. That's pretty sad!

I do think that I'm passionate about my daughter and being a good mom. That's why I started this blog, right? But lately, I'm wondering if that's just making me paranoid and insecure (some health issues followed by seeing family with young children who are more perfect than mine). What I really need, to show her how good passion is, is to find something outside of my house to be passionate about. A charity or something. I'm in a book club, but that's pretty minor. I'd like to join an orchestra, but it'll be a while before I have that kind of time. I've wanted to volunteer for a while, and even have some ideas of where and what, but still, that darn time thing.

Okay, here's my project for Passion. I am going to be passionate about finding time. Time to play with my daughter without listening for the dryer to be done. Time to just sit and read. Time to watch meaningless TV with my husband. Time to knit. Time to catch up with the friends who have been neglected since motherhood came along. The problem with finding all this time is that I also place a pretty big emphasis on my time to Sleep! I've got a few weeks here, till I move on. Maybe I'll figure something out before Passion is over.