It was in front of me all the time, but I've discovered what it is I'm passionate about. I'm passionate about being a good mom. And lately, I feel like I'm already failing completely. Without the details of my failures, I'm worried about the results. I'm afraid that working full-time and sending my daughter to a day care center three days a week is what's keeping her in a constant state of illness. I'm worried that, as she now knows what she wants and is getting better at communicating it, and has started throwing fits when she doesn't get it, that I'll consistently react wrong, and she'll become a selfish, spoiled only child. I think I'm turning into my mother, and I think that means my relationship with my daughter will repeat histroy; and that isn't good. And I'm afraid that my uptightness about all of this is making me an even WORSE mom!
So, maybe passion isn't my thing. I think she'll learn that better from her dad anyway!
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